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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

my prerogative

Amber.

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And I'm feeling a bit (just a bit) better, ^^ but I'm still careful about stuffs.

For the time being, you can help by not aggravating Princess. <<;

But seriously...

I don't normally blur the line between my "online" self, and my real life philosophies. But this is important.

The events of 20 years ago, in Beijing, China -- the Tiananmen Square protests -- mark one of the most important moments in human history. In May and June, 1989, thousands of young Chinese students organized a peaceful rally, in Tiananmen Square, to ask their government for more freedom, more liberties, and more democracy.

For several days, the eyes of the world were fixed on Beijing. People the world over, young people especially, stood in awe at the move, stunned by the sheer magic of it all. At first, there was a wonderful spirit of celebration in the air. The Chinese government didn't immediately react. The celebration grew larger. Around the world, people were starting to get hopeful.

The winds of change were starting to blow, back then, you see. And it was these young people who fanned them, twenty years ago.

Of course I remember these events clearly. I myself was a young student, back then. Those would turn out to be the last years of the Cold War, and it was a spectacular time to be young. We had grown up in a world of unimaginable threats. The world had raised us in the belief that there were deep divisions between us. Communists and capitalists. East and West. Black and white...

But guess what? We disagreed.

The generations before had imposed those divisions -- now, we questioned "why?" The generations before had sung songs about how pretty the world could be, if only it were different -- now, we were ready to change things. A generation before greedily preached that we should accept these divisions, and profit from them. But we were greedier: We didn't want the half of the world that we were allowed. We wanted the whole world, as our playground.

We stood defiant, proud, downright cocky. We were, we are the young people at the turn of history.

One cold day, in June, 1989, I was attending a Catholic youth convention. 700 young people, all of us seniors in high school, or college students. All of us enthusiastic, and open minded. Of course we talked about what was going on, half a world away, in China. At first we had been hopeful and happy about it. But as the days went by, there were signs that something big was going to happen. We started to worry. But our lives had to go on.

On that day, one of several during the convention, all of us were in an auditorium, hearing a speech. Suddenly, one of the organizers came into the hall. He hurried towards the stage, and hastily made his way to the microphone.

He apologized to the speaker, then took the microphone, and addressed us:

"We just got the news that the Chinese Army has been called in to quell the protests in Tiananmen Square...

As all of you know, these were young people... college students. People just like you.

They didn't deserve this. All they were asking for is for a bit of freedom... to live their lives in peace... the reports are coming in... there are many dead... several hundred. Possible even thousands...

Just think about that for a moment. Right now, we have seven hundred people in this auditorium...

I'll ask all of us to pause for just a minute, and say a prayer for these young people."

I'm never going to forget that moment, I'm never going to forget how my heart sank, how immensely crushed I felt that day.

Even now, twenty years after the events, the whole truth about Tiananmen Square is unknown, and will probably remain so. Credit the painfully efficient Chinese govenment cover-up machinery for this.

We may never know how many people died that day. There may never be a monument to their memories. Their names have been deleted from history, in the name of progress, in the name of the future, in the name of "peace."

But it is precisely these nameless young men and women, who died that day, upon whom we have built our future -- our present.

Soon after the Tiananmen Square demonstrations, the winds of change reached Eastern Europe. By the end of 1989, the Berlin Wall had fallen, communist regimes were dissolved, and the Cold war was over.

By 1990, Nelson Mandela was freed, and Apartheid was on its way out. By 1991, the Soviet Union would no longer exist.

And every time, it was the young people who made it happen. The young, bright eyed sons and daughters who demanded an end to the fear, who pushed for this new world. Look at the photographs of the era... the photos of young germans, smashing the bricks of the wall. The young south africans, dancing in the streets of Soweto, after Mandela's liberation. Look at the pictures of young men and women, the world over, heralding the coming of a new age, of a new world, different, diverse, and united.

To many of you, this is ancient history. It's not a big deal. Not that important, not even worth mentioning. Which leaves the old timers like me, still high on the spirit of my times, to keep the flame alight...

Twenty years ago, thousands of unnamed young people were killed by the Chinese government. Their crime was to be young.

On that day, they gave the world their most precious gift. For that, they shall remain youthful forever.


Epilogue: One year later, I was in Austin, Texas, an engineering freshman, making the mistake of starting my academic run on the Summer Session, 1990.

After somehow managing to make it through the mess of registration, at the Frank Erwin Center, on the UT campus, I left the Center, and met a few recruiters for the many different student groups. They were looking for new members, amongst the recently registered students. I approached a skydiving group, and got a brochure about doing a jump.

As I looked to find my way back to the dorm, someone approached me, and without saying anything, she tied a yellow cloth ribbon, around my arm.

"We're having a candlelight vigil, to remember the students from Tiananmen Square..."

She gave me a pamphlet, and it had a picture of the "Goddess of Democracy" statue from Tiananmen Square. The time and date of the vigil, and a little explanation of the yellow ribbon. "We're praying for the return of the martyrs of Tiananmen."

I didn't go, and I regret not going. My excuse is that I was very young (I started college young). I was in a brand new town, taking too many things in, to be bothered by a candlelight vigil...

But there's a few boxes I've left with my family, back in Texas. Amongst them, a box with things that I've kept through the years, and which I treasure beyond words.

The skydiving brochure isn't there. But the yellow ribbon is.


Epilogue two: Yes, I know the brutal irony of my porn, being done on "Made in China" tablet... >>;

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Saturday, May 16, 2009

all that was there will be there still

Amber, tech loli bunny girl, trying to figure out where those server files used to go... ^^;

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We've been experiencing some downtime and some 404s.  That's because we're still finishing the move to a new webhost, Dreamhost.com!

They seem to be quite awesome, even if they just went down as I was posting this. ^^;  But anyway...

Kitty has lots of big plans for the site!  And now, we have the horsepower to make them come true. ^^  Stay tuned!

In the meantime, let Kitty know if there's any broken links, images, or the like, ok? ^^

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Thursday, February 19, 2009

i am

Amber.

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Been working on this for a while, mew... been working on a lot of art, but also been very busy with real life stuffs.  If I regularly talk to you online, you know what I mean, mew.

On a related note, the facial requests are still a "go," just delayed, mew.  Kitty had planned to make a couple of b'day pictures for people, and even a V-day picture, but managed to get just one picture done -- yeah, that busy. <<;

On a related note to the related note, and since a couple of people have asked, my birthday is approaching.  It's happening the day before White Day.  Not that you need to get me anything, mew.  SRSLY. ^^;

Maybe something white would be nice, though? ^^

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Tuesday, February 3, 2009

only in dreams

So Kitty hasn't been updating his site in a while.  Kitty's been busy, that's all.  But he's been doing art, too.

Here's a couple of sketches of Amber, to get the updates started.

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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

i'm happy hope you're happy too

Amber, say, around... 6 years old?

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Left thumbnail for version with panties, right thumbnail for uncensored nude version.  "Censored" nude version uploaded to Pixiv and FA.

Decided to quickly sketch a picture of her, because I wanted to make a long journal type of post on FA.  Mostly to announce I will be clearing my galleries from old pics, opening for trades, and quickly say something about ze liver.

I don't think anyone was interested...

In any case, the clearing is a go, the trades are canceled, and ze liver is being a bit more annoying than it has been, but Kitty will recover.

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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

home home where i wanted to go v 1.0

Amber.  I paint her a whole lot, so I don't have to tell you she's a cute, cuddly, curvy bunny girl. ^^

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This is a different version that the one posted across VCL, FA, and Pixiv.  Finally posted it here, because I finally managed to connect to the FTP server -- although it appears to be a miscommunication from my ISP side.

Originally a quick Friday sketch from about two weeks ago.  Decided to clean it up over the weekend, seeing Kitty was feeling sick, TT and making little progress with either work, or his trade picture.

Originally, I was gonna post a fully clothed version of Amber, and that's it -- she was gonna wear a sera fuku, and stand in front of a Shinto temple bell.  But Kitty decided in his angelic mercy, to just show you this version. *^^*  Plus, Kitty lazy. <<;

In random news, Kitty... feeling so-so.  Didn't have to take painkillers last night, however.  I think that's good...

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Monday, October 27, 2008

(how i) wish you were here v 2

Amber.  This picture was painted almost a year ago, finally made it to my site, with a few corrections.

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This is around the time I decided Amber should be a bit less "plump."  Actually... ever since then, most of my furry girls have become at least a bit less plump. ^^;  I try to keep them curvy, though -- kemono girls should always be curvy. ^^

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Tuesday, October 7, 2008

waiting for a star to fall v 1.5

So I never posted the finished version of this picture, on this website.  Mew... let's fix that.

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This version is also slightly corrected from the one originally posted on FA.

In other news, Kitty was looking for information re: last night's tremor.  And while checking that link... mew... Kitty think he found Atlantis. oO

And on a serious note, Kitty just got some sad news from his kitten: His beloved puppy died last night. TT  So please be sending cuddles to my Amaru.

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

know it's true that you are

So I made a (not so quick) picture of Amber, yesterday.  It started out as a quick sketch to cheer myself up, but spent a couple of hours last night, coloring and toying with the color settings.

It was fun, actually. ^^

amber, bunny, baby girl

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Click thumbnail for the "panties only" version, just now available on CubCentral, as well. ^^

In other news... a few of you have been informed that the icky-ness is legal-related.  As usual, if you want to know, ask.

Kitty will say that the stress is getting to him... as I was finishing work on this picture last night, those evil (literally) Oo stomach cramps started... I quickly took two of those pink pills, and managed to sleep fairly well.

Mew... again, not to be one to whine for whatever or whatnot, mew... but so you know.

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Thursday, September 4, 2008

summer breeze v 1.5

Amber, bunny girl, age... well, very young. ^^

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Amber, in a happy cute summer picture.  The original version was posted on FA months ago.  This is a slightly corrected version -- along with the nude version, previously only available at Cub Central.

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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

i want you to know it's a little

So the link on the main page that says "Journal Labels," is a link to the journal labels page. ^^  Since my hosted Blogger journal comes without a "labels" widget, I had to write a little PHP script to collect all my journal labels.  Hopefully, it'll make it easier to the kind of porn that you all are looking for, with just a couple of clicks. ^^

The label system enabled and functional, it's time to start uploading all those pictures.  Of course, they will be labeled appropriately, so that they can be easily accessed through the "Labels" page.  The germans call it "vorsprung durch Technik," which roughly translates to "Kitty finally got off his adorably cute lazy little tail and wrote that script," in the beautiful and evil german language. oO

Moar chibis.  The background for this one took me a good couple of hours this morning. Oo

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I'll make a note to go easier on the "cutesy-ness," next time.  "Cute" != "cutesy."  But you knew that, already.

Edit, 10:56 am: So I'm enabling some 301-code redirects from my old site, and pointing those pages here.  And I decided to check my old site stats one last time.

The stats have... changed. oO  The couple of things that have remained constant about my visitors (at least, according to Quantcast) is that they are: 1, male, 2, mostly teenagers, (Hi, teens!) ^^ 3, heavily japanese, and 4, without kids.

But I always took pride in that we had a higher-than-average % of visits from people who made 100k or more a year.  And people with graduate degrees. oO

Now, however, Quantcast tells me that my visitors tend to be poor and uneducated... >>;;;

<<;

Get an edumakashun and a job, pplz. >>;  No ruining my stats kthxbai.

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Saturday, May 24, 2008

so many people love you baby

So my next picture will be of my cute little Amber.  As a baby.  I'm thinking "Amber Brown meets Anne Geddes," apparently... ^^;


After this is posted, I'm finishing that trade... SRSLY. ^^;;;

Also, and just so you know, there is no "other" version of this picture.  The FA and CC versions will be exactly the same.

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Monday, March 24, 2008

you wait and see when the smoke clears

I keep telling you to bookmark this site, just in case FA ever goes down, and you need a curvy bunny fix.


Well, aren't you glad you did? ^^

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Monday, February 4, 2008

the jasmine in my mind

Decided to upload the nude version of my chibi Amber picture.  As usual, my excuse is that it's a sin to paint pictures of naked kawaii debu kemono loli, and not post them. ^^

Also, a preview of a picture -- I'm kinda slowing down on this one, to make a quick sketch for someone who asked for a hug. ^^


Also, a BIG hug and kiss to thank a very special blue kitty, for the very lovely picture he made for Kitty. *^^*  I hope to be able to show it to everyone, soon. ^^

More later.

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Sunday, February 3, 2008

who plays what he wants to play

For those curious enough to click. ^^

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If anyone has been wondering about the nude version of my chubby bunny loli picture: YES, there is one, and NO it's not online.  So you know. ^^

Now, if you'll excuse me, I need to go back to ze arts, and try to finish a picture before the end of the day.  Feel free to look around, comment, touch yourself, etc. ^^

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