abandoned dreams

ninety nine ministers meet

2008-11-18T14:01:00.005-05:00

The usual preview of stuffs, and yes, I should be getting to work on that trade, but this will be a very long post, mew...

There's OMG important "health" and not-too-important "reality" updates behind that link, so look out!

Lots of random stuff!

Health first.

So Kitty felt OMG I'M DYING LOL last sunday. SRSLY. Oo

So Kitty went to the hospital, and they prescribed blood tests, and other tests, and an ultrasound. oO

Finally underwent through all the tests... will pick up results tomorrow... but.

The doctor believes it's a very serious liver problem... TT

It might be Hepatitis A. TT

She's recommended: 100% ABSOLUTE REST, which means, "lying down on my bed doing NOTHING" -- not even work. oO Lots of fluids and a VERY strict diet... TT

Personally, I doubt it's hep A, but I'll know for sure tomorrow, mew... I do agree it's a liver problem, and it's SRS... so I'm not arguing against the rest, mew...

A few people who have talked to Kitty over IM these past few days have been notified that lately, Kitty in intense pain. Not as bad as at first, but still... ouchie. TT Right now, it's less severe, but it's still there, and I should very much so lie down, but mew... >>;

Kitty taking care of himself, mew... went through the tests, they had to draw blood twice -- second time still hurts. TT Ultrasound was relatively painless... but they tell Kitty he's very clogged up... ^^; Hahah, news to Kitty, mew... >>;

tl;dr, still waiting on results, still in some pain -- will ask for sedation, tomorrow. oO And Kitty taking care of himself lots...

To all the people who have sent in good wishes, despite the fact that I haven't yet announced this openly until now, thank you. ^^ Kitty will get better, don't you worry! I'm still online -- even if I'm lying down, mew. So if you have me on your IM list, do say hi! if you see Kitty online... he would very much like to talk, mew. ^^

Ok, that's enough health updates.

Reality/news updates: Our noble local leaders (may they all burn in hell) >>; tell us that we're again the center of attention because both Dubya and the president of China, and lots of important pplz are hitting town for the APEC Summit, of world leaders from the Asia-Pacific rim.

(ahahah, Kitty said "rim") ^^

Lima recently hosted a summit... back in may. Not far from my home... >>;

This summit will also take place not far from where Kitty lives... <<; The circled top location is the National Museum, which is supposed to have these wonderful auditoriums and stuffs, and it was where the yooropeean leeders met back in May. The circle at the bottom marks the Ministry of Defense, reportedly, the location for a new round of meetings, this time around...

Hahaha... how funny that my house sits almost right in the middle of the straight line between those two. <<;

And Kitty too sick to start a one Kitty revolution. TT

IT'S A CONSPIRACY, I TELL YOU! >>;;;

Ok, Kitty done. ^^

and watch how you play v 1.0

2008-11-15T21:18:00.005-05:00

EDIT 10:35 pm :
Oh.
E-mail.
Well...

Believe anything you want about Kitty, but if you must believe only two things about Kitty, honestly... sincerely... please, believe these:

-

- Second, Kitty is old. ^^ You don't reach this level without being able to handle a few things, and heartbreak is definitely in the list. ^^

Kitty may look fragile and sensitive, and he keeps pushing this pink princess thing and stuffs. But Kitty can handle things far better than you may possibly think. Spooky, really. oO

Of course we should talk.

| end edit

This started as a quick Neo-porn picture. A 15 minute sketch that turned into a 2 hour... something. oO

Call it a happy anniversary pic. ^^

Kitty very briefly considered taking requests for Neoporn, for the remainder of the day... but Kitty decided to get some pizza, instead. ^^

home home where i wanted to go v 1.0

2008-11-11T07:06:00.004-05:00

Amber. I paint her a whole lot, so I don't have to tell you she's a cute, cuddly, curvy bunny girl. ^^

This is a different version that the one posted across VCL, FA, and Pixiv. Finally posted it here, because I finally managed to connect to the FTP server -- although it appears to be a miscommunication from my ISP side.

Originally a quick Friday sketch from about two weeks ago. Decided to clean it up over the weekend, seeing Kitty was feeling sick, TT and making little progress with either work, or his trade picture.

Originally, I was gonna post a fully clothed version of Amber, and that's it -- she was gonna wear a sera fuku, and stand in front of a Shinto temple bell. But Kitty decided in his angelic mercy, to just show you this version. *^^* Plus, Kitty lazy. <<;

In random news, Kitty... feeling so-so. Didn't have to take painkillers last night, however. I think that's good...

with somebody who loves me

2008-11-09T09:53:00.009-05:00

K. Just another of them random posts about stuffs. Preview, first: Who is that pokémon?

Hint: IT'S RAICHU!

Second, Kitty was digging through... Digg, >>; and Kitty found this sad TT yet funny ^^ yet sad TT letter from a puppy to the Obama girls. As some of you know, the future Overlord (hail!) promised his spawn a puppy, once they move into the White House. And apparently, word gets out quickly in the abandoned puppy community... ^^

Got Kitty to thinking about stuffs, so... well. Might be a good time to link to the American Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals, since most of my visitors come from the Empire. And you can be sure I'll be linking to the Peruvian SPCA from our company's pages...

And since we're busy saving the world, here... Kitty wanted to link to "The Hunger Site," you know, that site where you just click, and by just clicking, you donate food to the hungry -- also has sister sites to make donations for animal food, cancer prevention, the rainforest, etc. A good idea, you say... well... apparently, they're not a charity, anymore... and they're kinda secretive about their total donations... <<; Mew, ok, then again, if by just clicking you get sponsors to donate and stuffs, even if it's a diluted amount, here's the Hunger Site.

The founder of the original "Hunger Site," however, has a new site, which is more transparent, and although certain pretty wuffie had commented that "it's sad that, if someone has food to give, they would choose to taunt people with it, in order to get other people to answer silly questions," (you can't argue with logic...) ^^; Kitty still linking to them. The way Kitty figure, mew... it's just hard to come up with sponsors to donate money, mew. TT And if this gimmick works to do just that, well, so be it, and personally, I think it's kind of neat. ^^

Be warned that some of the questions are fiendishly difficult. >>; But helping to donate food for hungry people is always a good cause. ^^

Although... considering the time it takes to generate rice... might as well stick a twenty in an envelope and send it to them. ^^; But if oos has free time, and it's just easier for you to donate time, even a few minutes every day, mew... every bit helps, no?

Will move that link to the right bar soon, if no one objects.

tl;dr, mew... you can always help people and animals, in your community. Your spare change, and your spare time can work wonders! ^^

Well... excuse Kitty if sometimes, he wants to make a difference, instead of just making people horny... ^^;

In other other news, hahahah... this is a screenshot from Pixiv, just a few minutes ago. Can you read the tag near the middle, the one that's highlighted? That's one of the most popular tags in the site, right now. Lots of pplz are posting pictures on that topic...

Hint: The three katakana characters are: "O," "BA," and "MA." ^^

In other other news... Kitty not entirely 100%, but will get there. ^^

cadillacs lincolns too mercurys and subarus

2008-11-05T06:45:00.008-05:00

Mew, told you I was working on this, mew. ^^ About time, too.

So.

As has been tradition for Kitty for 12 years, Kitty went to a chinese buffet to talk about the US election with a friend, and pig out on sweet and sour stuff as the drama unravels. ^^

And in spite of heavy opposition from the state of Texas, it appears the gringos have selected "the other guy" as their leader.

(I miss those whiney, liberal wussies back home) TT

Regardles, Kitty congratulates our gargantuan cyborg president. May death come quickly to his enemies. ^^

i can see a new horizon v 0.9

2008-11-04T11:06:00.005-05:00

Jery Softpaw recently sent a little note on the CubCentral Mailing list, which he also posted on his FurAffinity page.

Kitty fully agree with Jery, so Kitty made this! It's slightly tongue in cheek, ^^ but you know Kitty doesn't kiss without punching in the liver, at the same time. *^^*

And now, a Chris Stevens moment -- don't worry, Kitty be brief. ^^

Today, like we do every four years, when the air becomes chilly, and the leaves become red, we celebrate Democracy. Today we take a sip of this warm cup of bourbon-laced cider for the spirit, we pat ourselves in the back for having made it four more years, we throw the dice, we light a candle, and we prepare to curse the glare.

It's funny, you know. To a faraway alien observer, democracy should be something that we celebrate every day, not just when it's time to dress all warm, brave the weather, brave the lines, and the mud slinging, and cast our civic conscience in a pull of a lever. But I digress...

Democracy, you see, doesn't happen only during elections. Elections happen during elections. But that precious, wondrous gift passed down from the ancient Athenians, tempered by our forefathers, and handed all the way down to the chaotic here and now, is something that we live every day. Or at least, something we should live, every day.

Government of the people, by the people, for the people, you see, is constantly listening to the people. It's constantly being guided and changed by the people. And that would be you.

Cast your vote today. Cast your vote every chance you get. Celebrate your freedom, celebrate the fact that your future is indeed in your hands. But most importantly, live that freedom, every day, every moment, with every breath you take. Get involved, move things, change the world. In the end, that's what Democracy is all about.

i will get by

2008-10-29T12:23:00.001-04:00

A preview of a sketch I'm cleaning up -- this was sketched in an oC with Amy, last week.

Also, yay epiphany. ^^

Well, Kitty make this quick.

Ok, I lied, Kitty try to make this quick. ^^;

So one of the underlying themes in this journal, as of late, is Kitty's health -- slowly/surely getting back on track, btw. And how, because of the alert that was sounded, a new leaner, meaner, healthier Kitty is in the works. Which is good, I suppose.

Perhaps... the biggest reason Kitty would've never considered lifestyle changes is because Kitty don't wanna admit he's growing... old. >>; As long as I can live life to the fullest, as long as I don't slow down, I'm still young, or so Kitty reasoned, more or less.

But you see... (and again, Kitty will never admit to being old, anyway) << it's not a matter of "growing old," but becoming aware of the simple truth that I am bound to the limitations of this physical body, and the laws of physics, chemistry, and quantum mechanics of this cursed, evil dimension what was my point again? Oo

The easiest way to put it is this:

My physical body needs maintenance, like any other machine does. It may be very hard for someone to believe but Kitty just recently figured this out. "As long as I can live life..." etc.

Continuous care of my physical body will ensure proper functioning, more enjoyment, and (I don't care about # of years but) quality and fun of my time on earth.

I know, I know... I hate how hokey, new-agey, middle-agey this sounds. >>; I can imagine the 15 year old me would kick the... 29+ year old me, and kick him, until the 29+ year old me kindly, sweetly, violently explained to the younger me, that this is for the best for both of us, and he should shut the hell up, *pimp smack* and stop being such a newbie, and raise more hell while he's still young.

But it makes logical sense, you know. Kitty a crazy, wild Kitty, but Kitty can't argue with logic. Kitty take good care of his machines, for example. His car (when he had one) and his PC. This ensures optimal working conditions, and a longer lifespan. Kitty proud of his ability to care for machinery, actually...

So... why neglect the lovely, adorable, rapeable machine that is Kitty himself? ^^

And I do admit Kitty in a bit of denial about becoming old. ^^;>>; Can't blame Kitty, really. Anyone over 21 is old to Kitty. ^^ But that's allright, that's ok. Old pplz can be cool... so maybe Kitty can be cool too... I mean, when he get old, in, say, 50 years. If he lives that long, of course, hahahah.

Coincidentally, did you know MTv put its entire video archive online? I know, wild! So Kitty just learned that too, and headed there this morning, and the first video he wanted to see -- and again, coincidentally, it's in the front page, somewhere -- was "Touch of gray," by The Grateful Dead.

Kitty not gonna wear any gray, mind you. >>; But the point gets across, and for that, Kitty thank Jerry Garcia, wherever he is. ^^

Anyway, Kitty just took some antibiotics without having breakfast, oO so he needs to go out and get something to eat. It'll be something healthy, of course. ^^

close the blinds and shut the door

2008-10-27T09:55:00.005-04:00

So my kitten had been sick, last week. TT Of course, it made Kitty wish he were over there to make my kitten feel better...

I posted on FA that Kitty gonna start asking pplz not to get all sick when Kitty himself is not feeling too well... <<; Kitty is the one who needs all the care, and luffings and stuffs, lately. >>; Plus, how can Kitty care for his favorite people, if Kitty all sick? TT

Speaking of, yay, health report behind this link..

Kitty sorry to be bringing icky details on his personal life on his website, mew. TT However, Kitty also know a few people worry, and it's probably a good idea to keep everyone informed, just in case, mew.

So... yeah... ulcer gone, or mostly gone... not bothering Kitty much, which is good. The bad news is that Kitty think that the treatment was overkill. Oo Liver... mew... feeling resentful and stuffs, with all the meds and stuffs. TT

And... it gets worse, of course. <<; Seems Kitty has now developed a kidney problem -- yay. >>; It might be a kidney stone... TT not sure yet...

Kitty has been to doctors to look for patches, mew. A cortisone shot, if you will -- a boost, a quick fix to keep Kitty running. Unfortunately... well... that has consequences. Kitty simply NOT taking care of himself. That's the underlying problem, mew...

I believed this whole icky series of events was a wake up call. Now, I believe it was a desperate cry from Kitty's body to simply stop being so mean to himself. And it's interesting, you know... how it takes a bit of a minor crisis, for Kitty to consider implementing lifestyle changes...

tl;dr, take care of yourself. SRSLY. In my case, I will make those changes I've been wanting to avoid for years. Partly... that's why I'm shying away from "plump" and "chubby"... Mew, that serious... It does appear that there is no such thing as "healthy" fat. Mew... take it from me... ulcers, stomach problems, kidney problems, liver and pancreas problems, back pain...

Kitty will live. Kitty will take care of himself, from now on... Kitty no want to go through this ickyness ever again...

Kitty will miss a lot of things, though. TT And strangely... the thought of such things now is a bit nauseating. oO Funny how we're bound by our bodies like that...

(how i) wish you were here v 2

2008-10-27T09:47:00.004-04:00

Amber. This picture was painted almost a year ago, finally made it to my site, with a few corrections.

This is around the time I decided Amber should be a bit less "plump." Actually... ever since then, most of my furry girls have become at least a bit less plump. ^^; I try to keep them curvy, though -- kemono girls should always be curvy. ^^

it must be a bad trip

2008-10-22T13:31:00.004-04:00

First, back to posting my previously un-posted images. ^^

Pikachu and raichu, going at it. Hardcore. Left thumbnail for girl + boy picture, right thumbnail for boy + boy picture.

Second of all, I loaded larger versions of my syeimi pictures. ^^ Check the posts where they were originally posted, here and here.

Finally and certainly not least, Kitty long ago realized that navigating the journal, looking for pictures, is a pain in the butt. <<; Thus, you will now see be able to access all image posts in the journal, conveniently listed in the bar to the right. ^^

The old Gallery, of course, is still online, for all the older pictures.

More stuff, soon!

emotions come i don't know why

2008-10-20T09:05:00.003-04:00

A quick drawing Kitty posted last night, at the SecretMoon Oekaki board.

Not much else to say, really. ^^;

Will be adding some code upgrades, features, and stuffs to the site, bit by bit -- when I find some free time.

all the world is babylon

2008-10-14T10:52:00.006-04:00

Mew... a sketch of Cayenne I'm currently working on... unfortunately, it will most likely be delayed like most of my arts.

As for Kitty... Kitty not well... reason for delay, mew. TT

Kitty being all whiney and stuff behind this link.

Ok.

So Kitty underwent treatment for his ulcer. Antibiotics, yay. The problem with the treatment is that Kitty's liver didn't like it.<<; Also, it seems to have decimated his "good" bacteria, which has been a SRS problem for Kitty in the past... >>;

Kitty can't get a break, apparently. ><

So... Kitty think the ulcer well in process of healing, but his stomach cramps have returned. They're strong, mew TT, just not OMG terrible as usual, which is what worries me... Oo If they were, I could just take valium, and be done with it... as it is... I'm not sure whether such strong medicine is called for or not. oO

Also... well... for about a week, Kitty was actually feeling fine! Responding nicely to treatment, no pain, no discomfort, mew. It suddenly started again last Thursday... it should peak today and be on the way out tomorrow. I hope...

Thus you have an achy, whiney Kitty... more quick tempered than usual, and pretty much unable to work. It's good that all Kitty has scheduled for today is just a meeting to pick up some money he is owed, and an advance on a new project he's getting involved. I think that on the way back home, I will get a refill on those pills... TT Kitty feel he has no choice, really.

keep smiling keep shining

2008-10-12T14:09:00.004-04:00

Mew... a little something I made for someone I just met on FA.

He wasn't feeling so well, and since he was asking for pudgy guys, well. ^^

Also sketched Amber, this morning, on an oC with Amy... she might post it on FA, I'll post the link, later. She returned from London with a cold...

Well... that kinda distracted Kitty from his own health problems. ^^ As it is... tummy aching (probably from the assault from last week's meds) compounded by back aches, which are a kind, gentle reminder that Kitty is just fat. >>; Yay discovery. <<; Appropriate for an Oct. 12th, no? ^^;

a glimpse of summer's heatwaves in your eyes v 1.0 a

2008-10-08T20:28:00.004-04:00

Yay, more of everyone's favorite little debu kemo shota polar bear. ^^

(Warning: nude polar bear boy yumminess) ^^

Two more versions will be uploaded, one to FA, one to CC.

In other news, Kitty annoyed that no one (and I mean NO ONE) commented on the background of my last Blossom picture. >>; That waterfall was fully rendered by Kitty, it's not a filtered photograph, mew. <<; Thanks for noticing. ><

On a related note, the bg for this picture of Kitty was also (hastily) ^^; painted by Kitty. The forest and the rocks and stuffs are all Kitty's, but Kitty confess that he traced Fuji-san... ^^; but the trace was from a picture that Kitty himself took, back in Fuji-yoshida. So... it's all good. ^^ 100% original Japanese inspired Kitty yumminess for ze ~~perverts~~ fans. ^^

waiting for a star to fall v 1.5

2008-10-07T10:02:00.004-04:00

So I never posted the finished version of this picture, on this website. Mew... let's fix that.

This version is also slightly corrected from the one originally posted on FA.

In other news, Kitty was looking for information re: last night's tremor. And while checking that link... mew... Kitty think he found Atlantis. oO

And on a serious note, Kitty just got some sad news from his kitten: His beloved puppy died last night. TT So please be sending cuddles to my Amaru.

put another dime in the jukebox baby

2008-10-05T11:39:00.005-04:00

The oC session with PK and Amy is live, on FA! Need to have the mature filters turned off, though.

Regarding my "Maverick" McCain avatar: Some furries found it objectionable, (go fig...) but the point remains that OMFG Y DO THEY INSIST ON BEING MAVERICKS? >>;;; Even the hopelessly un-funny SNL pplz noticed this much. <<;

This Maverick very displeased. >>; Kitty need ice cream. <<;

i had no illusions

2008-10-04T08:16:00.007-04:00

Kitty is a Maverick. ^^ My current FurAffinity avvie is proof. ^^;

Mew just a little commentary on how it has somehow become fashionable to "be a maverick." Oo Kitty turned on the tele a couple of days back, and there was this lady saying how some guy she knows is "a real maverick." She must have said it like 20 times. oO

Well...

Not an endorsement of anything or whatnot. SRSLY. But just in case some "maverick"s aren't to your liking, I certainly hope this one is ^^ :

gonna be a sudden craze

2008-10-01T12:21:00.011-04:00

A preview of a Saffron picture I'm working on.

Still working a lot of the details off, mew. And Kitty know he shouldn't start new pictures, if there is a whole bunch of pictures (good ones) that he's already working on, but mew, Kitty adorable like that. ^^

In other news, it appears Kitty's monster has a name: gastric ulcer. >>;

If you want to keep reading, click here.

Personally, I don't think it's that bad. Ulcers are not only treatable, but they're not really SRS. Kitty actually relieved that, for a change, the condition has a name. I never did figure out what the cramps were about. oO

Considering the little arsenal that I'm using to tackle this (Mylanta, a sucralfate, a form of valium oO, tetracycline, acetylaminophenol, and metronidazole), well... Kitty a bit weary about a few side effects... so Kitty will be careful. This little array was assembled by two doctors and a pharmacist, but considering that ye olde internets has conflicting information about these medicines, mew... <<; Kitty will definitely be careful.

some say "nothing lasts forever"

2008-09-29T00:11:00.002-04:00

Blossom Weiß, NSA agent. Off duty, of course... ^^

This picture is also a nod to the following:

First of all, Furrmie, a phenomenal artist, a wonderful person, and a fan of the 80's. ^^ The way his girls' poses turn out so sexy and natural at once is absolutely unmatched. This picture is my humble attempt at capturing some of his awesomeness. ^^

Second of all, my time in Japan, especially early 2005. This picture will be posted on FA with a snippet of the lyrics to Soul'd Out's "To all tha dreamers," which was a big hit in Japan, during the last days of my stay over there.

In other news, Kitty is still feeling the effects of stress, and not taking care of himself when he had the chance. >>; Oh, well.

know it's true that you are

2008-09-24T12:27:00.004-04:00

So I made a (not so quick) picture of Amber, yesterday. It started out as a quick sketch to cheer myself up, but spent a couple of hours last night, coloring and toying with the color settings.

It was fun, actually. ^^

Click thumbnail for the "panties only" version, just now available on CubCentral, as well. ^^

In other news... a few of you have been informed that the icky-ness is legal-related. As usual, if you want to know, ask.

Kitty will say that the stress is getting to him... as I was finishing work on this picture last night, those evil (literally) Oo stomach cramps started... I quickly took two of those pink pills, and managed to sleep fairly well.

Mew... again, not to be one to whine for whatever or whatnot, mew... but so you know.

if the sky can crack v 1.0

2008-09-20T17:21:00.004-04:00

Thyme, space kitten.

First of the "level two" artworks. Again, you may not "see it," but it's there.

Kitty starting to feel less ashamed of his work. ^^

i must've dreamed a thousand dreams

2008-09-18T12:15:00.005-04:00

Mew...

Kitty not the type to hog for "sympathy" or "attention" or whatnot. But if anyone asks, things have turned severely complicated in Kitty's life.

Kitty will prevail, but things are difficult, and solutions bitter.

Kitty still make art -- if anything, Kitty feel the need to balance insane amounts of work and ickiness, with insane amounts of art.

Kitty also apologize for falling asleep during conversations, lately. Kitty just very tired these days, mew.

of course you're not shy

2008-09-13T12:14:00.006-04:00

I decided to name my poké-kids. There's Zoe, the syeimi, of course. Then Brenda, the vulpix, Corey, the eevee. And Ian.

Fair chubby poké-shota warning. ^^

This is the last picture that I sketched as a "level one" picture. Kitty has decided to take himself a bit more seriously as an artist, and is pushing to achieve the next level -- level two. ^^

To start things up, a picture of Thyme, 2.0 -- she was a kitty, but she'll end up being a tiger. ^^

I'm not sure if you can see it, but believe Kitty when he says it's there. ^^

Kitty will try to work on this picture today, but he has stuffs to do, a cake to bake, and lunch with a friend, so... mew. But Kitty will try. ^^

time i had some time alone v 1.1

2008-09-11T00:01:00.006-04:00

summer breeze v 1.5

2008-09-04T09:29:00.006-04:00

Amber, bunny girl, age... well, very young. ^^

Amber, in a happy cute summer picture. The original version was posted on FA months ago. This is a slightly corrected version -- along with the nude version, previously only available at Cub Central.