abandoned dreams

yes i believe in me so you believe in you

2009-06-30T01:53:00.003-04:00

Maverick. My (rare, as of late) "grown up" form.

relax (take it easy)

2009-06-19T21:06:00.005-04:00

Brenda, young vulpix girl.

Don't much like the picture. The outline is too simple, and it didn't merit going all out with the coloring... but it is a loli vulpix, and it's probably relevant to someone's interests, so here it is.

Princess extremely busy as of late. Will focus on pending gifts and pictures that Princess had told others that he would do for them.

Then shota, Princess hasn't done any chubby shota in a while.

to all my neighbors you got much flavor

2009-06-13T20:46:00.002-04:00

A mini-comic featuring Kauvara, from Neopets. Well, one page of it, actually...

Neopets and related indicia © 2009 Neopets Inc.

my prerogative

2009-06-03T02:09:00.005-04:00

Amber.

And I'm feeling a bit (just a bit) better, ^^ but I'm still careful about stuffs.

For the time being, you can help by not aggravating Princess. <<;

But seriously...
I don't normally blur the line between my "online" self, and my real life philosophies. But this is important.

The events of 20 years ago, in Beijing, China -- the Tiananmen Square protests -- mark one of the most important moments in human history. In May and June, 1989, thousands of young Chinese students organized a peaceful rally, in Tiananmen Square, to ask their government for more freedom, more liberties, and more democracy.

For several days, the eyes of the world were fixed on Beijing. People the world over, young people especially, stood in awe at the move, stunned by the sheer magic of it all. At first, there was a wonderful spirit of celebration in the air. The Chinese government didn't immediately react. The celebration grew larger. Around the world, people were starting to get hopeful.

The winds of change were starting to blow, back then, you see. And it was these young people who fanned them, twenty years ago.

Of course I remember these events clearly. I myself was a young student, back then. Those would turn out to be the last years of the Cold War, and it was a spectacular time to be young. We had grown up in a world of unimaginable threats. The world had raised us in the belief that there were deep divisions between us. Communists and capitalists. East and West. Black and white...

But guess what? We disagreed.

The generations before had imposed those divisions -- now, we questioned "why?" The generations before had sung songs about how pretty the world could be, if only it were different -- now, we were ready to change things. A generation before greedily preached that we should accept these divisions, and profit from them. But we were greedier: We didn't want the half of the world that we were allowed. We wanted the whole world, as our playground.

We stood defiant, proud, downright cocky. We were, we are the young people at the turn of history.

One cold day, in June, 1989, I was attending a Catholic youth convention. 700 young people, all of us seniors in high school, or college students. All of us enthusiastic, and open minded. Of course we talked about what was going on, half a world away, in China. At first we had been hopeful and happy about it. But as the days went by, there were signs that something big was going to happen. We started to worry. But our lives had to go on.

On that day, one of several during the convention, all of us were in an auditorium, hearing a speech. Suddenly, one of the organizers came into the hall. He hurried towards the stage, and hastily made his way to the microphone.

He apologized to the speaker, then took the microphone, and addressed us:

"We just got the news that the Chinese Army has been called in to quell the protests in Tiananmen Square...

As all of you know, these were young people... college students. People just like you.

They didn't deserve this. All they were asking for is for a bit of freedom... to live their lives in peace... the reports are coming in... there are many dead... several hundred. Possible even thousands...

Just think about that for a moment. Right now, we have seven hundred people in this auditorium...

I'll ask all of us to pause for just a minute, and say a prayer for these young people."

I'm never going to forget that moment, I'm never going to forget how my heart sank, how immensely crushed I felt that day.

Even now, twenty years after the events, the whole truth about Tiananmen Square is unknown, and will probably remain so. Credit the painfully efficient Chinese govenment cover-up machinery for this.

We may never know how many people died that day. There may never be a monument to their memories. Their names have been deleted from history, in the name of progress, in the name of the future, in the name of "peace."

But it is precisely these nameless young men and women, who died that day, upon whom we have built our future -- our present.

Soon after the Tiananmen Square demonstrations, the winds of change reached Eastern Europe. By the end of 1989, the Berlin Wall had fallen, communist regimes were dissolved, and the Cold war was over.

By 1990, Nelson Mandela was freed, and Apartheid was on its way out. By 1991, the Soviet Union would no longer exist.

And every time, it was the young people who made it happen. The young, bright eyed sons and daughters who demanded an end to the fear, who pushed for this new world. Look at the photographs of the era... the photos of young germans, smashing the bricks of the wall. The young south africans, dancing in the streets of Soweto, after Mandela's liberation. Look at the pictures of young men and women, the world over, heralding the coming of a new age, of a new world, different, diverse, and united.

To many of you, this is ancient history. It's not a big deal. Not that important, not even worth mentioning. Which leaves the old timers like me, still high on the spirit of my times, to keep the flame alight...

Twenty years ago, thousands of unnamed young people were killed by the Chinese government. Their crime was to be young.

On that day, they gave the world their most precious gift. For that, they shall remain youthful forever.

Epilogue: One year later, I was in Austin, Texas, an engineering freshman, making the mistake of starting my academic run on the Summer Session, 1990.

After somehow managing to make it through the mess of registration, at the Frank Erwin Center, on the UT campus, I left the Center, and met a few recruiters for the many different student groups. They were looking for new members, amongst the recently registered students. I approached a skydiving group, and got a brochure about doing a jump.

As I looked to find my way back to the dorm, someone approached me, and without saying anything, she tied a yellow cloth ribbon, around my arm.

"We're having a candlelight vigil, to remember the students from Tiananmen Square..."

She gave me a pamphlet, and it had a picture of the "Goddess of Democracy" statue from Tiananmen Square. The time and date of the vigil, and a little explanation of the yellow ribbon. "We're praying for the return of the martyrs of Tiananmen."

I didn't go, and I regret not going. My excuse is that I was very young (I started college young). I was in a brand new town, taking too many things in, to be bothered by a candlelight vigil...

But there's a few boxes I've left with my family, back in Texas. Amongst them, a box with things that I've kept through the years, and which I treasure beyond words.

The skydiving brochure isn't there. But the yellow ribbon is.

Epilogue two: Yes, I know the brutal irony of my porn, being done on "Made in China" tablet... >>;

it's out there i can feel it

2009-05-31T20:35:00.003-04:00

Thyme.

The entire picture was rendered by Kitty, even the background -- although the bg was referenced from a picture.

Thyme is looking at a monitor, offscreen. The outfit is supposed to be half-off -- Thyme is supposed to be undressing. The setting goes something like this:

Thyme has arrived to Earth, 1999. She recognizes the planet, even though she's never actually been to Earth. Immediately, she sets her spaceship into orbit, and she starts to scan for signals of something very specific. The signal is very weak, her instruments are not that sensitive, and there's too much interference... but she's not giving up. She's come from too far away.

It's been hours since she's arrived. After jumping through the wormhole, to this place in space-time, she's very tired. She sets the scan on auto, and prepares herself for bed...

"NOTICE" -- a terminal in her room flashes green. Exhausted, just a minute ago, Thyme stares at the data on the screen, in utter astonishment.

"Could this be...?"

And just as she was undressing for bed... ^^;

---

One of those pictures that I do because of character development, because deep inside, I dig this art stuff, but mostly, because I wanna. ^^

Of course there's a nude version. Also, I might post hi-res version if enough people ask for it.

i got my rock moves and i don't need you

2009-05-21T00:11:00.003-04:00

Blossom.

I started this after coming back from the new Star Trek movie, and I wanted to finish it that same night, as a quick sketch. Hahah, instead, I'm using this "quick sketch" as my new front page image. ^^

Alternate version posted on FA, and "desktop" version planned, when I have time, and when Kitty feeling better.

I've commented that there's often hidden meanings or purposes to my pics. The easiest way to figure them out is to do a search on the titles. ^^

On FA, I'm expecting the usual type of comments that the usual type of people post on this type of picture. "Oh murr that is sexy and I want to do this to her because I'm so manly, and I need to assert my puny masculinity before it dwindles away hubba hubba." Yay. Well, at least they're comments...

I guess I shouldn't be so harsh on the "curvy girl fans." The "cub art" fans are worse: once you get to know them, many of them are veering dangerously close to illegal, disgusting territory <<; -- or worse, they demand that Kitty draws diapers. >>;;;

Hahah, Kitty never happy, I guess. ^^ So what? I'm still a rock star. ^^

all that was there will be there still

2009-05-16T18:12:00.001-04:00

Amber, tech loli bunny girl, trying to figure out where those server files used to go... ^^;

We've been experiencing some downtime and some 404s. That's because we're still finishing the move to a new webhost, Dreamhost.com!

They seem to be quite awesome, even if they just went down as I was posting this. ^^; But anyway...

Kitty has lots of big plans for the site! And now, we have the horsepower to make them come true. ^^ Stay tuned!

In the meantime, let Kitty know if there's any broken links, images, or the like, ok? ^^

fever til you sizzle

2009-05-02T07:18:00.006-04:00

Plump, fat-bottomed piggy girl, sketched and finished Friday. Originally posted on FA as my "swine flu" picture.

Someone might prefer the "non toxic" version, so I'm posting this, now. Alternatively, the original "swine flu" version is located here.

Finally... please remember that this is "just" a strain of influenza. The kind of thing that goes around every year, during, I dunno... flu season? >>; Yes, the flu is contagious, (and for the elderly, or the very young, it could turn dangerous) but all in all, it's a highly treatable disease, and it would more likely be a nuisance, than anything else.

Just because it has an icky name like "swine flu" doesn't make it all... deadly in a pig way. oO Just stay safe, wash yer hands, and most of all, DON'T PANIC.

don't stop til you get enough

2009-04-24T23:46:00.004-04:00

Sara. Quite aware that I haven't painted her in years...

Originally sketched over a Ustream session a couple of weeks ago. Finally decided to clean it up a bit.

Still thinking about where to stick the uncensored version, and "up my cute furry butt" is not an option. <<;

baby you have to be sure

2009-04-05T13:02:00.006-04:00

Saffron.

No introduction, nor explanation needed.

In related news, I might be producing t-shirts with my art on them... I'm still choosing the picture. They'll be good shirts, 100% cotton, high-quality heavyweight (would anyone prefer lightweight?), commercial-grade, export-quality assembly and finish, made by the shirt manufacturer that I work with -- and certainly not the OMG MAEK YOUR OWN SHIRT LOL poly-blend, ultra thin, wear-twice-then-throw-away kind of shirts.

Is anyone interested? Stay tuned.

hear it on my window pane

2009-04-05T12:44:00.005-04:00

Parsley, tanuki girl from the future -- probably can't tell she's a tanuki, but she is. Months ago, she was named "Corey," short for Coriander.

Not much of an improvement, apparently.

I'll be listing "tanuki" under the same label as "racoon," although tanuki and raccoons are not the same, not even related.

with all this fame comes

2009-03-29T23:14:00.004-04:00

Libby, raichu girl.

A quick relaxation sketch. Kitty very busy with work and his ongoing stuffs that some of you already know about. It's been hectic, it's been stressful, it's been very tiring...

In any case, raichu boobies. I'll find a way to continue with ze arts, somehow...

such a muddy line between

2009-03-22T11:16:00.004-04:00

More Neopets related ~~art~~ ~~smut~~ pictures. ^^; A girl xweetok, this time.

Meant to finish this by St. Patrick's day, but mew -- Kitty busy with work and other real life stuffs, mew...

but the thought you'd be there

2009-03-14T23:42:00.004-04:00

Kitty's birthday picture. Yesterday, we celebrated one more year of utter, adorable pinkness. *^^*

It is a crime against Princess to forget Princess' birthday, by the way... >>;

Also by the way, Kitty not posting his rl picture in public. <<; If you're that curious, ask for my photo, Kitty not shy. ^^ And if I do say "no," be assured that it's because I don't like you, or I don't trust you -- not because I'm shy. *^^*

die erdanziehungskraft ist überwunden

2009-03-13T16:27:00.003-04:00

Fawn.

Technically a "macro" picture? ^^

And if you don't remember what day is it, I haet you. >>;

I mean, more of course. <<;

Related picture coming tomorrow, I hope... Kitty just too busy to be pouty or art-ey.

complicating circulating

2009-03-08T19:38:00.005-04:00

So.

Kitty gots himself a Second Life account. ^^

"Kitty Crystal" is Kitty's Second Life avatar! Kitty still a cute, chubby, ~~raepable~~ polar bear boy, but on SL, polar bear boys are not that cute, or chubby, or stuffs. >>; For the time being, Kitty go with the pony look on SL -- although not complaning much. ^^

Basic character design and pose courtesy of Lost Furest Creatures, and Linden Labs.

cuz if you're hungry

2009-03-01T03:10:00.006-05:00

It's uni day in Neopets, so happy uni day. Make a uni happy today. ^^

begging to if you seek amy

2009-02-25T12:29:00.003-05:00

Kitty.

Kinda sorta a request, and kinda sorta a picture to show off.

I mean, show off my coloring techniques, of course. *^^*

Did I mention my b'day is coming up soon? Hahah, well, I did it again. ^^

i am

2009-02-19T23:07:00.004-05:00

Amber.

Been working on this for a while, mew... been working on a lot of art, but also been very busy with real life stuffs. If I regularly talk to you online, you know what I mean, mew.

On a related note, the facial requests are still a "go," just delayed, mew. Kitty had planned to make a couple of b'day pictures for people, and even a V-day picture, but managed to get just one picture done -- yeah, that busy. <<;

On a related note to the related note, and since a couple of people have asked, my birthday is approaching. It's happening the day before White Day. Not that you need to get me anything, mew. SRSLY. ^^;

Maybe something white would be nice, though? ^^

keep feeling fascination

2009-02-09T11:06:00.002-05:00

Ginger, chibi version.

I'm making "chibi" versions of my characters, so I can put them in my site layout. Ginger will probably go in the "About" page.

cruel summer

2009-02-03T21:48:00.004-05:00

A (not so quick) quick sketch of chibi/young Fawn.

In other news, it really is very hot down here. >>; Kitty can barely work or even do art, mew...

Two other versions will be made available, one at FA, another at Pixiv, but this is my favorite version.

Edit: I decided to go ahead and post another version on CubCentral and on FA. I try to avoid posting young nudes or xxx art on FA because there are a couple of artists whose opinion I really respect, and who have made it clear they don't approve of "cub" art.

This is a statement of fact, not an invitation to discussion. Unfortunately, saying such things on FA would probably lead to furry drama, and everyone knows Kitty just haet that. >>;

I can always post "younger" art here, or at CubCentral, anyway. But since the "final nude version" turned out much better than the original version I posted on FA, I decided to go ahead and post that one over there, as well.

only in dreams

2009-02-03T14:05:00.007-05:00

So Kitty hasn't been updating his site in a while. Kitty's been busy, that's all. But he's been doing art, too.

Here's a couple of sketches of Amber, to get the updates started.

bound to be the very next phase

2009-01-18T16:40:00.002-05:00

Saffron.

my cry of wonder

2009-01-11T18:11:00.005-05:00

April.

Again, first actual post of a character on this website, so... description!

April is a pretty wolf boy from South Africa! Sweet, but pushy, and extremely girly, he would actually prefer to be treated as a girl.

He's an afrikaner, and he speaks english with a heavy afrikaans accent. ^^ He's also roughly Dhruva's age. He arrives in the same timeline as Cayenne's, and in fact, their stories are very much related.

April is the holder of a Celestial Weapon. His weapon is the "Southern Crossbow." Cayenne successfully destroys April's weapon, as it was her mission, but victory for Cayenne comes at a price...

After his "regular" timeline is over, April returns in an "alternate" timeline, to join Cayenne, Dhruva, and ? in a quest to save the world...

After the regular and alternate timelines merge, we see April growing up, and taking part in the liberation of his homeland. Soon after, he moves to Portland, to be with Dhruva, unaware that his old rival, Cayenne, is escaping to Portland, as well...

i'd love to turn the tide

2009-01-09T19:36:00.004-05:00

Kitty.

Wallpaper sized just in case, you know, whatever.